Numbers to be quiet

The magic of numbers and dates to look for a reason to understand the things happened in your life.

Dates are numbers, repeat every once year, if you think that everything isn’t casual, just think about. Probably you are happier with and answer to questions that there isn’t a clear answer.

Time never stop but is real, the planet move fast around the sun and we are inside quiet with any feeling of speed, we look that sun moves. The perspective of life could be similar to the planet, you can feel stop looking what is happening around, or maybe you move thinking that all around move with you.

The landscape change every day to show how the time never stop

Good luck or bad to explain why things happened, answers for questions that even you haven’t clear that are in your mind.

Connect all your life helps to feel that you have the control, you’re the boss of your life. You can stop and put the pause, but your control needs battery. You follow the movie of your life, your role can be very important or just a secondary actor, but the film never ends. Love, horror, porn, story, game, adventure… The movie is everything sometimes you’re the start and you have the power to decide your role with the director, but at the end there is lot of pressure from the producers. Always somebody control you, but the boss is the time.

Nice scenery

Today I’m very deep after a job interview, waiting for and answer for the next step. I feel the moment and I liked, I believe that is my moment, time to change to fight against the black role that I have been during a long time.

My producers thing about this new role


Last month of the year, time to start to think about all the things happened.
Human are strong and even in strange situation we survive with lot of questions to answer but a main sentence for life, forever carry on…

2020 when the future start, all the social projects of a new society are here. Lot of revolutions in the world, the economy needs a stop, to restart in a new way. This year we saw very clear, but always society needs evolution, changes aren’t after you see back and discover all the steps you did.

With lot of control but we are alive and we need to feel it…

Now I find a good balance after months lost in the jungle. Out from the fog and the trees the way is more clear. I know some steps will be harder, but always better if you can see the next clear enough to advance or come back safe.

Learning from each other, share and enjoy together…

Future is never clear, the good thing is that you can change your point of view. Maybe isn’t posible to change your destiny, but you can understand in a different way.

The way

Come back

Monday could my first day in a new job, after a few months.

I’ll try ti write, but it’s posible that I can’t do it everyday. I will miss the relax moments of writing.

New job, new places is good to have new ideas. Like always when you start in a new place you’re the debutant that anybody now, new role.
I like have a good start makes everything easier. I don’t want to think about, because this is my problem, I need to think in other things to forget, my obsessive mind is better think in different things. A few time to adaptation and enjoy the new life.

New routine that is necessary to control well to work quiet like a robot, is my way to enjoy the job and everything.

There isn’t a clear way but I follow the water

Next week in English I can explain more things, maybe the first day of the new job.

I’m ready to pass the exam to come back to the way, forget the past and build a new future.

A new start like every single day

Viviendo el presente

Ahora más que nunca intento vivir el día a día. El futuro es más incierto que nunca, tanto que asomarse a él asusta.

Buscar refugio para sentirse protegido y seguro.

Cada uno sabe donde puede encontrar ese refugio

Hay quien necesita el murmullo y la multitud, aunque ahora no es lo más popular, después de este aislamiento social, con el miedo a repetir de nuevo en Otoño.

A mi ya me está bien el aislamiento, no soy de grandes multitudes, puedo conversar con cualquier persona que crucé por mi camino. Lo que menos me gusta es que te limiten el movimiento, el sentirte observado y juzgado más de la cuenta. Esa sensación de estar enjaulado no la soporto, me gusta decidir cuándo necesito mi momento de encierro, pero no por imposición.

Medidas que se justifican, pero las excusas son diferentes con el paso de los días y siempre predominando un estado de tensión y miedo. Sus consecuencias estoy seguro que saldrán a flote en las próximas semanas, los traumas salen cuando ya han pasado. El instinto de supervivencia nos hace salir adelante, pero una vez sales y te paras a pensar todo lo vivido, miras hacia atrás y te asustas, ese miedo te bloquea y ya no puedes continuar.

No puedes remontar contracorriente, es muy fuerte y te arrastra

Felicidad al sentir un poco de libertad, porque valoras lo que has perdido durante un tiempo y el miedo a volver a perderla de nuevo.

Situaciones en que siempre te quieren hacer sentir como el protagonista para sentirse culpable, cuando simplemente tú no pudiste dar tu opinión jamás, el río te arrastro sin más, ahora te culpan del camino elegido.

Te encuentras atrapado entre la multitud

En fin reflexiones de un día cualquiera sin hablar de nada en concreto pero que puede servir para muchos momentos.

De dónde vienes y hacia dónde vas, cuando no tienes respuestas a esas preguntas, seguramente estas perdido, pero si encima no eres el único pues es fácil tener miedo.

Come back to the nature

After the look down of the cities, maybe lot of people want to leave it.

It’s a good opportunity to have a better of distribution of the population.

Until now people live in the city for the services. Now without shop, online shopping is getting more popular, without pubs, restaurants, theaters, cinemas… The parks closed, beach where is forbidden take a bath.

I’m living in a village 10 years ago. I leave the metropolitan are of Barcelona 12 years ago. 1 year without working in the city, only my parents are the connection with the city, for the rest I don’t need.

I love the mountain, my quality of life is walk, run in the forest.

My father lived in this house in Extremadura. Always talks with nostalgic of the birds there.
Now is just another field, with a destroyed house.
The grandfather of my father plant this trees 70 years ago. Eucalyptus was very popular in Spain, even isn’t the best tree.

My parents came to the city looking for a better life, now I think world is going to change. The only thing that you need is a good connection to internet. The services will come back with the people. Spain needs to conserve nice village, but they need people. The new countryside where isn’t necessary work the earth like a profesional.

The forest is increasing every year. The fields in the mountain are now forest, you can see walls in the middle of the forest to show how was the past.

We have better forest around the village than in the past. People work in different activities…
Just a few hours to have like this…
The forest is hidden some parts of the past.
Here one hundred years ago less trees and fields in stairs.